mirrorball

...and i doubted myself, or: how my ta's went on strike for a month and i still pulled straight a's.

eclaypool@gmail.com — Thu, 05 Jan 2006 05:23:52 GMT

read them and weep, muthafuckas:
intro to psych: a-
fys travel fictions: a-
ws the artist in context: a
cities in global context: a
final gpa for my first semester at nyu: 3.85

sha-BAM!

i think i have the right to give myself a metaphorical pat on the back in this situation. so, :pats self on back:.

eclaypool@gmail.com — Sat, 03 Dec 2005 21:12:17 GMT

i am so ineffectual it's slightly ridiculous.

eclaypool@gmail.com — Sat, 24 Sep 2005 18:54:52 GMT

i'm making this friends-only. i'd rather know who's reading about my life then keeping it open to the whole world. not like i post anything life-altering anyway, but still. so, if you want to be able to read about my oh-so interesting life, leave a comment, and i'll add you. otherwise, peace out, suckas!

eclaypool@gmail.com — Fri, 23 Sep 2005 15:55:33 GMT

i finally got my ipod/itunes to work! yessssssssssssssssss.

eclaypool@gmail.com — Thu, 22 Sep 2005 22:06:09 GMT

i got a care package today from home. it had 2 boxes of cereal, fig newtons & creme savers in it. i'm excited. now i have five boxes of cereal in my possession, and that means i won't have to shell out $5 every time i run low. how pumped am i?

today was insanely busy, and i'm not sure why. i had class from 11-1215, then i got lunch & picniced with brian, nina & emily 2 in the park, then i had two back-to-back classes until 445. i got home at five, and have been lazing around ever since. i've decided that i'm not going to do any work tonight & basically just be a huge bum. i think i might just make soup & watch a movie. i don't even feel like going downstairs to get food, that's how lazy i am right now. i love it, haha. and shirley went out w. some friends from high school, so i have the room to myself until she gets back later tonight. sweeeet. i think her ex-boyfriend is coming to visit this weekend; it should definitely be interesting to see how that plays out.

eclaypool@gmail.com — Wed, 14 Sep 2005 20:03:27 GMT

a day off isn't really a day off when your to-do list is longer than war and peace and you've been doing work for 5 hours straight.

other than that, a good day. :[

excitement!

eclaypool@gmail.com — Wed, 14 Sep 2005 01:52:14 GMT

ry's coming to visit this weekend.

i don't think it's necessary to say how excited i am. let's just put it this way: sodfkjos;i0w49504295irpowsfkjsoir40850495-93240-04239wojfsldfjsljfslbndmbndc!!!!!!!!!!!!!

yeah, that's basically it. :]

i can't wait to show him around. i think all the uneasiness that he's been feeling (or not feeling) will dissipate when he sees/experiences the city from my perspective.

bah!

eclaypool@gmail.com — Mon, 12 Sep 2005 17:18:14 GMT

i'm not sure i like having the whole afternoon to myself on mondays (recitation until 10:20, then nothing until 6). i told myself when i was registering that this would be reading/getting ahead on homework/being productive time, and yet, all i've gotten accomplished is improving my procrastination skills. since i've gotten home this morning, i've a) taken a power nap, b) stared at my virginia woolf essay waiting for inspiration, c) gone through the memories of nyu, d) gotten lunch and e) read 5 pages of a book that needs to be finished by 11 am tomorrow.

and now i'm here, updating this damn lj. my priorities are so in line, huh?

i need focus!

eclaypool@gmail.com — Sun, 11 Sep 2005 23:28:02 GMT

the one time i need my words to console someone who is literally heartbroken, they come out mumbled and harsh and not at all how i wanted them to. the only thing i could say was "i don't know what to say."

words are a tricky bitch.

eclaypool@gmail.com — Sat, 10 Sep 2005 22:17:01 GMT

obviously, the past couple days have been emotional, confusing, weird, and somewhat revealing for me.

i apologize for offending anyone, weirding anyone out, and basically taking my frustrations out on el-jay. i shouldn't invest so much emotionally in this stupid thing, anyway.

eclaypool@gmail.com — Fri, 09 Sep 2005 22:09:30 GMT

i'm confused.

sometimes i feel like i'm the butt of the joke. i feel like my mind is being toyed with, and i don't know how to make it stop.

i'm having a really hard time here.

but wasn't that obvious?

eclaypool@gmail.com — Wed, 07 Sep 2005 02:08:43 GMT

am i the only person in the history of the world to have a severe allergy attack in the middle of an urban metropolis?

yes?

that's what i thought.

eclaypool@gmail.com — Tue, 06 Sep 2005 22:32:13 GMT

my first day as an official nyu student went pretty well. i think i'm really going to enjoy both my gallatin classes [travel fictions & the artist in context], and my met studies class [cities in global context] should be interesting (especially since i've never had a class like it before). i will have to remember, however, that silver is fucking INSANE during the afternoon rush hour (which i discovered is at 2), so i better get used to hiking up seven flights of stairs every tuesday and thursday. other than that, i'm really liking my schedule thus far. this week is pretty easy; i don't have any classes on wednesdays, and my friday recitation got cancelled. a pretty successful first day, i must admit.

though i do kind of miss having the whole day to myself. but not that much.

eclaypool@gmail.com — Tue, 06 Sep 2005 02:54:37 GMT

classes start tomorrow. i'm excitednervousanxiousscared. this week has been a little vacation from reality with no real responsibilities and total freedom, and i'm both glad and slightly disappointed that it's over. i need structure in my days; it's hard for me to have blank hours during the day with nowhere to be and no work to get done. i'm a creature of habit and routine, and i'm looking forward to getting back on a schedule.

wish me luck.

eclaypool@gmail.com — Mon, 05 Sep 2005 00:45:13 GMT

this kind of made me feel better. kind of.

i miss my globe.

eclaypool@gmail.com — Sat, 03 Sep 2005 21:13:31 GMT

this is the second day in a row that i've been utterly exhausted before 5 pm. what is this?

eclaypool@gmail.com — Thu, 01 Sep 2005 19:33:50 GMT

i think i'm still reeling from rocky horror last night.

a thousand other memories of you.

eclaypool@gmail.com — Thu, 01 Sep 2005 00:39:09 GMT

today there was a benefit concert thing in washington square park [which is, by the way, 2 blocks away from where i'm sitting right now] to keep cbgb's open. for all you uncultured people out there, cbgb's is a punk club in the bowery that's like a mecca for the underground scene. and it's going to be closed because of some real estate bullshit. so there was a "save cbgb's" concert today to raise awareness for the whole issue. i spent the majority of my day there, roasting under the sun for part of it, and sitting on a bench by the dog run with brian and amy for the rest of it. the cool part of this whole thing is, bush, blondie and public enemy played. and i got pretty good pictures of gavin rossdale (sp?), mostly because he's gorgeous and partly because he's gorgeous. so yeah. i'm thinking i like this place. a lot. like, seriously, this is where i live.

that's gavin.

the arch and bush.

the crowd. it was pretty much all nyu kids. haha.

oh, and public enemy played as well. haha. i saw public enemy. i feel so white when i say that. :]

so yeah. nyu is so much cooler than your school. evidence? see above. (i'm kidding, by the way. i'm sure it's not cooler than every school out there.)

i'm seeing a live production of the rocky horror picture show tonight at 11 in our student center, kimmel. i'm pumped. it should be a good time. god, i'm so spoiled by these welcome week activities [hypnotist, rocky horror, free food up the wazoo, discounted avenue q tickets, etc, etc]. i don't know what i'm going to do when all the free stuff ends. oh, i know. i'm going to go broke. :]

eclaypool@gmail.com — Wed, 31 Aug 2005 00:45:03 GMT

mental note:
never, ever take air conditioning for granted. never.

seriously. living in the city when it's humid and gross and sticky and YUCK and coming home to more humidity, grossness, stickiness and YUCK is not nice.

eclaypool@gmail.com — Mon, 29 Aug 2005 13:46:40 GMT

i live in new york.

i love saying it.

.............

now i'm off to breakfast w. one mr. brian voll, then picking up our rug, then going to the bookstore, then going to the floor meeting/presidential address. i have a full first day at college ahead of me.

oh, and i went to a hookah bar last night. haha. :]

eclaypool@gmail.com — Thu, 25 Aug 2005 04:16:40 GMT

i just got emotional on the way home. like tears and everything. what brought it on was this song --> "on your porch" by the format. i've listened to that song hundreds of times, and it's never, ever made me emotional before. yet, tears nonetheless.

i don't do well with leaving.

eclaypool@gmail.com — Wed, 24 Aug 2005 19:23:57 GMT

tomorrow's gonna suck.

i'm officially resurrecting the to-do list. be excited.

eclaypool@gmail.com — Fri, 19 Aug 2005 16:53:44 GMT

things that must get done before next friday (aka when I LEAVE):
- massive amounts of laundry.
- pack. i've been putting this off like it's my job.
- girls' night.
- haircut.
- figure out why itunes won't recognize my ipod (oh, maybe because it sucks).
- narrow down CD collection to reasonable amount.
- same goes for books/dvds/framed pictures.
- go to target & get last minute stuff.
- go to salavation army & stock up on cheap tshirts because a girl can never have enough .99 tshirts. obviously.
- buy socks at work/ take advantage of discount while i can.
- use up rest of ae/b&n gift certificates.
- get school supplies & esp. day planner <-- VERY IMPORTANT to my mental well-being.

i'm in my final seven days in the 603.

tagged by the hot elitist queen of rubin, aka miss schweizAH.

eclaypool@gmail.com — Wed, 17 Aug 2005 02:43:09 GMT

list ten things that make you happy, then tag five friends:
001. david sedaris.
002. kicking ryan's ass at cribbage.
003. the fact that i'm living in the same city with my favorite sister, cousins and people in less than two weeks.
004. sweatpants.
005. old photos.
006. being able to just be with someone.
007. my laptop when it isn't screwing up my itunes.
008. v8 splash.
009. cheesy chick flicks.
010. being liberated from osports in t-minus 3 days.

i tag: mollielizabeth, mismatchinsocks, soccerquincy, thatgirlariel, and even though miss sara already tagged her, queendanish.

i got poison ivy from ry. i totally jinxed myself by thinking that since i've never gotten it before (even though i've practically rolled in it as a child), i couldn't possibly get it from ry. oh, how wrong i was. :[ not nice.

rapid hope lost.

eclaypool@gmail.com — Tue, 16 Aug 2005 05:36:33 GMT

it's one in the morning, and i'm at that point where i know i should go to bed, but i refuse to give in. my body is more tired than my brain.

this fucking birth control is screwing with my hormones in a big way, and i'm not sure i'm a fan. actually, i'm definitely not. though the perks of being flooded with estrogen highly outweigh the hormonal fluctuations.

i feel like i'm on a totally different wavelength than all the people i went to high schoo with. i've matured in ways i never thought possible in the last couple months. and because of this, i feel like i'm losing touch with all the people i care about, and that leaving them and this area will be the best thing that's ever happened to me. it's a weird feeling. the other night, some of us went to a random playground and swung on the swings for like 45 minutes, talking about how much it;s going to suck leaving. but in the back of my mind, i knew that leaving is going to be like a catharsis, and for me at least, it's going to be more of a release than a separation. there's going to be so much relief, and not as much pain. knowing that i'm going to be independent of my friends - though i pretty much am already - is... i don't even know how to describe it. and i know that all this sounds awful, but i'm at a point in my life where i need to surround myself with people i didn't go to catholic school with, that i didn't get drunk for the first time with, that i haven't told all my secrets to. i need a fresh start, and leaving is providing me with that chance. it's not as if by going to school i'm turning my back on people back home. it's more of closing a chapter than shutting a door, as cheesy as that sounds. we're all at the point in our lives when our real life begins. everything up to this point has been preparation, practice. everything we've done, all the things we've accomplished, all the people we've met, everything has played a role in prepping us for what's to come. all the friends we've had, all the enemies we've made, all those people have somehow, someway prepared us for the harsh reality of that not-so-distant real world. i don't take anyone, any pain, any joy for granted because i know that without all that, i wouldn't be where i am right now. we're at the end of the road, and whatever lies ahead, we're ready for. i know i'm ready for it. i'm ready to take that plunge into the real world. and i know i'll be ok because of the people and the places and the highs and the lows and the joys and the love and the pitfalls and the tears and the LIFE that i've lived. we're all going to be ok. none of us is going to come back from college the same as we went in. and that both excites and petrifies me. seeing myself - my friends- transform is going to be thrilling. is that a good thing? maybe yes. maybe no. we'll find out when we get there. but the one thing i'm sure of- it's going to be one hell of a ride.

i leave in ten days.